Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Another Bad Weigh-In

I actually started crying in my meeting today. I have never done that and I felt very embarrassed but I could not help it. I have busted my butt over the last year only to get close to the finish line and start gaining it all back. UGH! YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!! I have worked to hard for this and have waited too long. I have been exercising and tracking and this is how the scale repays me.

I have shared this many times in my meetings...I turn my set backs into motivations to push myself harder. As I sat here eating my veggie sub, I reflected back to what in my daily routine have I changed over the last few weeks/months. I came across this article on one of my favorite magazine's websites. A light bulb went on in my head. One change that I have made is I have been eating cereal for breakfast instead of my usual oatmeal. It add bulk to my cereal (though it is healthy) by adding fruit. By the time I am done adding things in I have spent about 5 of my 22 points for the day. My oatmeal is anywhere around 2-3 points depending on the kind. I am going to be sure to look at everything I eat this week and track my hunger levels. Hopefully, I can turn these positive numbers back into negative ones.

I already know my week ahead will be a stressful and difficult one. I appreciate the kind support I have already gotten from many of you. My mother is coming over this weekend and she tries to be my food police. Even at the age of 32 my mother still tries to control me like a little child. This causes me to sneak food and emotionally eat...something I have struggled with for many years. I can honestly say that I can relate to people who are recovering from drug and alcohol addictions. Food addiction and eating disorders can be equally hard to overcome. A clinical psychologist has never offically diagnosed me with an eating disorder. But I can say that for years I have used food to deal with some difficult times in my life. That is why I created this blog (a suggestion from a very good friend) to allow me to get through these difficult times without turning to food. Thank you again for being there for me with your kind words and support!

3 comments:

  1. It's ok.. no need to cry. Just know that you are plateauing going up and down within 1 lb. You are eating healthy and are exercising more than u have. I will attribute it to muscle. You have your bicycle now and activity points to earn and burn. No eating more than your points. If you need to.. your husband can take the food from you or at least help you eat it. ;)

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  2. Thank you Anonymous. I am still waiting for that healthy dinner you wanted to take me on. LOL I love you Bu!

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  3. I don't know you but your man's a FB friend and I'm doing WW too, so I stopped by to read. I have to say, you're doing way better than I am, and I've had experience with the frustrations.

    But that's not why I'm here. people on the WW message boards keep saying that 1) you lose better if you eat your weeklies so your body doesn't think it has to hold on to everything it's got and 2) you need to drink lotsa water when you increase your exercise level or intensity, to let the muscles recover (if you don't they retain it anyway for a few weeks). I can't vouch for 1) but 2) held true for me.

    Go you!

    Deb (a stranger)

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